Being afraid..

The more I’m afraid of something d more I know I have to do it
I could lead a protected life
Hiding away from this scary world
Or I could take on the things that scare me the most
The more it might hurt the more I might die doing it
The more worth doing it must be
Jodi Lenner , L Word Season 4.

I don’t wanna die now. All I want is to have a life of my own. Actually I’m not afraid of it. It seems that my parents who really are. They alwez wanted a secure and protected life for me n my siblings especially d gals. Well..I have another 2 lil sis. Both of them are taking medicine course sponsored by MARA which guaranteed them a job if they successfully graduated.

I understand my parents concern..yeah dats wat parents supposed to worry about aite?!
But dis is my life..i want to be true to myself. At d same time..i dunt want to make it too hard on my parents. So i decided to further my studies.. Its like tarik rambut dalam tepung..rambut tak putus tepung tak selerak. I must be wise enough. I dun tell my parents yet..i just do it. I already apply n now waiting for d result. Hopefully i’ll get d admission by dis December. At dat time..my sis will be back in Malaysia n work near home. Now her turn lak to teman my mum. My Dad pun tgh tunggu surat nk transfer ke Kedah from Putrajaya. Maybe lps raya. So he also will be at home n my mum sure tak kisah dah if i keluar from d house. Eheheheh.

With that..I rest my case.